Is a misconstrue or feelings??

Is a hard feelings...is a mix feelings...

Is a misunderstand...

I want someone to understand me,

I want someone to care about me,

I want someone to listen to me,

I want someone to share with me...

But it seems like everything seems to be a whisper off.. I really do not understand WHY? Can someone tell me why? When I thought everything seems to be fine and getting on track that time, it give me hope and strength and telling me once more everything will be fine. I will see rainbows...TRUE enough, I see rainbows...

And the days after, it disappear...It also same like rainbows that comes out after raining but disappears when the sun rise high....That is the way it does on me....When I have thought everything will be alright, suddenly everything seems not going on my path...I HATE THAT!....

People always tell me love is wonderful..and I shall say is YES..

AND I have oodles of definition about that...

Love is patient, love is kind.

It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud.

It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker.

Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life...

Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it.
It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true.

BUT...

it seems like everything is opposite to me now.

It also enhances the relationship and comforts the soul..

LOVE should not be experienced and not just felt..

as the DEPTH of love cannot be measured.

But how many people that understand this??

I understand but people tends to misconcept my way of thoughts..

If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily...

And as GOD said, "Love all"

Somehow or rather,

the meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity.

Some say it is false and meaningless; it never exist,

because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships..

But deep in me; cavernous in me..

I believe love exist...

if we understand each other and must always remember that nobody is perfect...

BE together, share the joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need...

AND surely love will blossom to strengthen the relationship with the matter of affection..

By this way, I hope I will always see the rainbow of my life..and I hope the tears of mine will stop dropping.......

I'm Going Back to Uni..

Oh NO!!

I am going back to uni in few hours time more. This is what I hate the most. Really can't imagine what will I be when I go back there. First, I will have a new roommate which I don't know who she will be. Secondly, my group of college peers have been shifted here and there and therefore to meet up with them is not an easy task. Thirdly, studies is going to resume back soon. SO HATE IT!

Oh...and not to forget I will meet back that bunch of fucking bitches. Those barbaric and idioctic people who got no sense one. They think they are great but to me they are only like a small ant or maybe just a pinch of dust. They are so moron and simple-minded.

Ok, enough of that. For conclusion, I just hate that. I am going back so I need to face the fact that I am going back.

Result OUT!

Result is out...RESULT IS OUT! What do I expect??? As I expected that it wasn't that good as the previous sem. I drop and drop and drop...but somehow or rather I already expect the poor result. I can't reveal my result over here due to some personal thingy, but to those who want to know can ask me ya..haha..

I already expected that my result is bad this semester due to accounting. I am horrible towards numbers. I'm the one who like immune towards number one. I HATE NUMBERS!

The plot of knowing my result was my friend message me and telling me that the result was out. At that moment I still daze around the blues and so lazy to wake up. Another reason was because I was afraid to know the result even tough I expected it. BUT still, have to face the norm of it so I woke up and checked the result. TADA~~~ at first was very blur but once get to know the result I am totally awake. AFTER seeeing...I straight turn into like this....>>>>>>

THAT IS THE EMOTION I AM HAVING AFTER I KNEW MY RESULT.........

Sad :(

Why am I sad??? Cause I am going back to uni soon..in a few more hourss...

Going back to the place which is so not belong to me.
Going back to the tight and no freedom bird cage..
Going back to a place which I lost my identity of who I am.. (sounds serious)
Going back to a place which I have to bear with all those rules and regulations...
Going back to a place which I can't adapt to the people around me..
Going back to a place where things seems not going on my track..
Going back to a place where will make me miss everything left behind in Malacca...
Going abck to a place where hectic life begins...
and definitely going back a place where assignment, presentation and homework are waiting for me....
and how I wish I do not need to go back...

Seems like there are so many negative thought about my perception on my UNI...and I guess it takes time for me to forget and think of the positive thought..but I think the negative is more than the positive one..

Sad case~~

It was totally a sad case because till today my com has not recover yet...still in "unconscious" condition. So meanwhile really no update...tat all for this short post...i believe every blog also must have some short post, therefore I am making this short and simple..