The born of MUSHROOMS...

This is like the 2nd time I am visiting my dad's newly build mushroom's farm. The last time I went there it wasn't that developed yet. From 3 mushrooms house now they had expanded it into 18 houses (more in the future) and readying to grow and plant their 2nd experimental mushrooms with better seeds and better equipment. Hopefully, those oyster mushrooms can grow well. My dad is doing well on this but we (my bro and I) never knew how those oysters mushrooms are being grown..*shy*..haha...Nevertheless, we do not even know how the machines are being made. But, I am always proud of my dad who invented those machine and proudly present it to the market despite lots of failure. And finally we got the chance to witness the movering of it... =) Coming till this stage is always not easy but what success is if it wasn't a failure before it. We had come a long way and I think we had lots of suffering too. Till then, all those suffering should come to an end and now we are starting and revolving with a better life. I hope GOD treat us well and blessing's of GOD are following us. I might not had been a rich girl before but I am sure I had been a poor girl before. NO JOKE! Those sufferings and pains....only GOD knows! But I am serious blessed with the toughness and family GOD had given me. We had come to a long way before reaching it. Now, I am more blessed than ever...


Dad showing us how the bagging machine functions. That is where the cork woods and the seeds are being bag in a plastic. All machinery...


Bro and daddy are seeing how the cork wood is being mix and bladder-ed..

The cork wood are bring transferred to other parts of the machine with the usage of the conveyor belt.

The steamer...


The steamer is used to steam those mushroom that had been bagged in order to kills those virus and germs.... The steaming period is about 2 hours plus.

The rack that used to put those mushrooms that had been bagged.

The plastic bag cover..Is an important item as this is where the oyster mushroom will grow out...


Rows of mushroom's house~

The toilet for the workers...

Inside the mushroom's house..

The cooling mist...

Actually the farm is located at Tebong, Melaka and is really deep inside jungle..haha...but it has nice and beautiful environment and scenery despite a lots of mosquitoes. But it was rather cooling inside there even the sun shines brightly...

The beautiful natural scenery..Green green grass of homie..

The river...used to be very nice last time with lotus flower but it seems no longer now.

All smiles gal..

Yeah, I am indeed a happy girl. I just do not know why...Maybe I am waking up to a day without work and facing aunties. How great life can be?? haha.. and I am glad too that I need not have to work tomorrow. I had a nice holidayzz.... so tell me, how am I not being happy?? and I am getting weird recently..watch me out and I am typing this post weirdly too. I am a WEIRDO..haha..

But before I end my weird post, I would like to share a phrase with all my dear readers...

" Love when you're ready, not when you're alone..."

Still surviving~

Yet, I am still surviving in Oriental Food Industries after all the havoc those aunties throwing to me yesterday. Hey, aunties...I AM STILL HERE TODAY! I seriously do not know what are in the minds of this bloody aunties. They are old already but the way they acted is exactly like those small kiddos or shall I say those people who has little of mentally. Do not mean to offence, but sometimes they are just too over with what they are doing. They just don't gain my respect.

They just spoilt my wonderful Tuesday morning. Supposingly, I should had an enjoyable working day yesterday as my boss was still not back yet and I can just slack my whole day. She, the aunty...had nothing better to do but to cari pasal with me. I seriously hate her more now. But as I say, I will stop complaining so indeed I will just forget whatever happen yesterday and continue to count the blessings I had. Instead, she better pray more that the karma happens on her will not be that bad. With back-stabbing people, finding trouble with people..will not make your life better, aunty... I am not those little girl who will just sit down quietly and listen and awaits for your order. I am rather an aggressive ones. You might be able to control all people in the office, those intern, and those people whom you think you can bully...But just to let you know, I am not those people for you to bully. After all, I do not need to listen to your order. You are not my superior either. You are nothing to me. Boo~~~

*Take a deep breath*... Today is definitely better than yesterday, and I will definitely surviving and living better.

Mother Teresa..

..Mother Teresa..
~The peacemaker, The Pioneer, The Legend~

Mother Teresa was always her own person, startlingly independent, obedient, yet challenging some preconceived notions and expectations. Her own life story includes many illustrations of her willingness to listen to and follow her own conscience, even when it seemed to contradict what was expected.

Her love to serve, her love to help the poor has the never ending point. Mother Teresa gained worldwide acclaim with her tireless efforts on behalf of world peace. Her love and her patient to all mankinds should have been followed as an example to the peoples and the younger ones. The inspirations in her has never failed to leave footsteps in the heart of all. She can says as the great humanitarian.

I always get inspired by all the motivational quotes and she ones had become my role model. I still vividly remember when I was having my Uni orientation and they do have this ice-breaking session where they want us to name out one of our role model in our life. Without hestitating, my role model that first pop up in mind will be non-other than Mother Teresa. When they asked me why is Mother Teresa being my choice, I would just pompously answered them because of her love, her care, her kindness, her spirit and her leadership that has bring me to have the faith in her.

She just has so much spark in all her words. And only GOD knows how lovely this lady could be. There are particulary few quotes from her that had carve a place in my mind.

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  Before you speak, it is necessary for you to listen, for God speaks in the silence of the heart.
  



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  Speak tenderly to them. Let there be kindness in your face, in your eyes, in your smile, in the warmth of your greeting. Always have a cheerful smile. Don't only give your care, but give your heart as well.
  



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  Little things are indeed little, but to be faithful in little things is a great thing.
  



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  If we really want to love we must learn how to forgive.

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  Yesterday is gone. Tomorrow has not yet come. We have only today. Let us begin.
  

However, her motivational quotes not only that but it has like so many but this is the few that I had fond on it individually. With all those things that mentioned, sometimes I am indeed bless with what I am having compared to those poorer one who yet to have any food. We might say that we are poor, but millions out there who are poorer than us. We are nothing compared to them who are striving hard to survive. And sometimes I seriously got no idea why some people would wanna commit suicide because of LOVE. They simply do not deserve to be in this world and the care and love that their family had given to them. I am not saying them as smart but I would say them as STUPID.

Therefore, NOW...
I had learnt to stop complaining (or at least I am trying to complain lesser) but try to appreciate whatever things I had and do not take things for granted. Try to think positive in every possible ways too. No point being narrow minded as life goes on, days still passing by...Just accept the fact and GO THE DISTANCE!

HOPE is always there for each and everyone of us and MIRACLE do happen. We just need to wait for it patiently and SMILE whenever we can. Put a smile on our face as we might draw a smile on others too...

Guys SUCK!

Why do I wanna say until so harsh when mentioning about guys?? Guys are really that sucks sometimes. They are really a moron who do not care others peoples' feelings. However, I am writting this not to all guys but to a particular group of guys who falls under this. And I think most of the guys do fall on this matter.

And guys are in the most suck situation when they told you that they wanna go after a best friend of yours. GOD damn! If I am the particular person who heard this when the person I care and I love and I treasure the most told me, I think I will be heart broken. Here they are, they will never appreaciate whatever things they had but they will go on and on to find a more beautiful young ladies. But they never know that true beauties not only behold on the outer part but also the inner beauty that ones had. If you are pretty in the outside, that is only packaging....

That is the reason why I am still single right till now because I never ever trust guys. They can say like 10001 things good in front of you but hey yeah, once turn back they are like DEVIL! You never know what are they doing and in turn, they might just hurt you deeply.

I hope I never hurt any guys feelings who read on my blog. No offence but is just a shout loud...

Sad...

It was rather sad to hear news of someone that you knew and someone that you love had left you for a better place and better living. Yesterday, early morning about 8 plus, my mum kept calling my hp but I was away from my office and hp wasn't with me. When I looked back at my hp an hour later, I was ashock with the numbers of incoming calls from my mum and in my heart I sense something bad as my mum would not called me so many times, if there isn't any important matters. I was sad the momebt when I called back to my mum and know the news that my granduncle had passed away in the wee hours of morning due to lung infection. I was rather moody after hearing and receiving the news about it. Right after work, I quickly fastened my pace back to my maternal grandparents' house and my heart sunk when saw the picture altar of my granduncle. He do not have family and my grandpa was his brother and dear family to him only. Therefore, he is someone we respect and we cherish when we were with him. However, things aren't the same anymore. He is now gone and we will always miss him dearly as always. Rest in peace~~~ GOD bless!

Dilemma!

I am in super high arouse of dilemma..

I do not know what is my future gonna hold for me. I am afraid of choosing the wrong path and enter the wrong field. I would not want to make an U-turn in my life as it was really a waste of time and with that, it makes me super dilemma. I thought without applying for job first, I can take a good rest but it seems I am wrong.

I think I am the super lucky devil that have all the lucks where I being offered with 2 jobs right after I finished my Uni life and without me sending them resume. WHAT a LUCKY DEVIL! But I am having problems to where I wanna be now.

1. From A'famosa calling me asking what position would I prefered in their resort? So I answered with a position which is forever my strength with is PR (in my heart wanna say CEO already..haha..). They are offering me 2.3k but then not really much of benefits and is like super far. From my house also need about 30mins with the speed of 100km/h without traffic lights.

2. From Philea Resort and Spa. Offering me hotel ambassador..My job is mostly layan those orang kaya, those super damn big VIP. Is exactly like PR work description too actually. 1.9K and after confirmation will be increasement. This one is alright for me but then this job gotta work shift and basically the salary was just 1k and after hotel credit point will have 1.9k. So now is it worth??

I am in dilemma now. I do not know which to choose. 2 in hotel industry and another one is in secretary field...gosh~~~ all seems good and nice to me. In Malacca, I do not expect the salary like KL for about 2.5k, but as long as 2k is already very good and GOD treats me well. Now, which should I choose?? If you were me, you were end up in which option?? I am really afraid that I made the wrong choice..or shall I just wait for others options?? Or as what my friend said, venture into "xiu lai lai" field?? haha..that I need a super rich prince..haha...

Disappointment.....
I am tired and sick of hoping and wishing already...
It will never come to an end.
This is even worst when you are expecting something from a particular person but at the end you do not earn anything.
You get nothing again and again except disappointment.
Serious tired and till certain moment of time, I am telling myself that do not put any hope on anyting and on anybody...
Well, that supposed will be the best way to avoid disappointment.

My arousal~~~~

This is how I feel now.. My super high sugar rush which lead to many factors.

Firstly, I am in DON'T KNOW WHAT condition....

Secondly, I am FED UP with everything that happends and everything that I do...

Thirdly, I am confused with my life...

Forthly, I AM ?????? I do not know what should I do in the next moment..

I need all this, perhaps..

DEATH...

Although intellectually we all know that one day we shall die, generally we are so reluctant to think of our death that this knowledge does not touch our hearts, and we live our life as if we were going to be in this world forever.

Each day, and every minute of each day, and every instant that each minute holds, you but relive the single instant when the time of terror took the place of love.

A sense of being dead, of peace and painlessness,looking down upon yourself and traveling through a tunnelto a light so bright and beautiful.

It is always sad to know that you have lost your beloved mum. I do not know how to comfort you others than giving you my deepest condolences to you and your family. I seen you in sadness through your eyes, I seen you being so slim down and old in looking and no longer the cheerful person I once knew.

I know you are sad but deep inside you are trying hard to hide your emotions and let everyone know that you are fine. BUT I knew, you are not fine the moment you hug me. A hug from you really can make me sense many hidden things inside you. I can felt your sadness and the emptyness in you. Your mum used to be your best friend. And it seems like you left with nothing now. I do hope that I can be by your side and comfort you.

Seeing you in the funeral parlour, trying to act tough I knew it really was not easy for you. I wish I could do something too. But in the end, I seem so helpless to you.

May GOD bless your mum and Rest in Peace~~~

I'm Fine..

When I say I am fine, does not mean that I AM FINE. Deep inside me, there are plenty of things perplexing....

SO I AM NOT FINE~~~

Selfish..

This is a serious attitude and character problem that most people will have now. But it seems like it is getting stronger among the people that I knew. It is really sad to know that the people around us tend to be selfish to whatever things or stuff they do. They will only think of their own. For GOD saken, it is really hard to bare with people like them.

I really do not understand why some people can be fucking so selfish in everything that they do. They won't help anyone but theirselves and have no regard for anyone or anything in this world. These miserable bastards should be nucked and pissed off. They are making me felt so annoying towards their stupid character.

And then, I have come to the realization that almost every person in my life now that I met is selfish which make them sucky person. I have no expectations to those person except accept them for who they are - SELFISH.

Till then; I realize still my childhood friend...my old schoolmates were the bestf friends of mine even till now. We care for each other feelings and never failed to concern each other even we are distance away. Nothing beats the strong bond that I have with them compared to the new friends that I found.

It is really sad to know the truth when you really treat them as your friends sincerely. Perhaps, is me who has been into it too emotionally. But then, I thought we should treat each and everyone of our friends no matter we are close with them or what with the same treatment.

People......YOU PAY ME WITH THIS, AND NOW YOU ARE GETTING THE OTHER WAY ROUND TREATMENT FROM ME TOO. You did not appreaciate what has given to you, so do not blame people when people do treat you in a negative way. Well, life is VICE VERSA.

YOU only will remember people when you need help from that particular person. But when people ask from your help, you will never ever give a helping hand at all. Is really sad to know about it. You also never work as a team. You just think of yourself and your work load, the stress and pressure you are having BUT never think that others people have the same as you. So why do people need to do your part as well?

I seriously do not understand this....

Well, you force me to GIVE YOU A HELL FACE.

THIS IS LIFE!

PLease~~

Please, DO HELP OUT...

Is really not one man show...or 2 men shows...IS A TEAM WORK.

PLEASE BARE IN MIND, you are part of the team too.

You have your work, so do us. Please considerate...

Gives you HELL man!

Don't wait until I slap your face, only you know what is going on...

Another weekend..

Another weekend yet to past. Time really moving fast and I hope time tik-tok slower but I guess, that was just another dream. I had limited time constraints to finish up all my work load from my research till my work stuff till my own homework. Even how multi-tasker am I also, I still found out that my job load was a lot. Sigh~~~

Every week I back Malacca I will try to relax myself, letting off myself to take a deep breath and just enjoy myself back home. Hence, every week back here I will go out to have some drinks with my friends. Because I felt, this is the only way for me to hold myself back from all the work load I am facing.

AND, I just found out that I maybe was under some serious sickness which is INSOMNIA. Gosh~~ sleeping is so important but here I am, unable to sleep every nights. I have sleepless night for more than a month already. Please, I want to sleep. I look so horrible and terrible now. Friends of mine, quoting that I look very old now and having to see me in so weak condition. Hello, I am just 22 years old but I guess I tend to look like 42 years old now. I really need a rest. My body is going weaker and I do not know how long I can stand some more. Each time back, I am happy to jump on my bed and have the feeling that I will have a good night sleep tonight but things just aren't going on my pace. STILL, I am unable to sleep well.

HOW? I really do not know how. I hope, I wish, I know how too. I will soon become crazy if my condition continues to be so...

Just want to share this song with all my friends. Jericho was cute enough for everything. He meltzz me...and the song lyric for this song was written so well...and if ever a guy sings this song to me, I guess I will definitely fall.. *smash head*... I know I am dreaming..haha..

SO enjoy this song, Jericho Rosales - Beautiful in my Eyes...




To all my friends who is very dear to me, all of you all are some one who is very beautiful to me and I appreciate you all for coming into my life. I thank GOD for all that has been given to me.

Final Year Project~~

It was so fast when I thought back that I first enter Uni and now I am in the FINAL YEAR already. Once again, it proved that time really tik-tok fast. Every sound of the tick-tocking reminds us that we should not waste our time. Time wait for no tide.

Today, I went to meet my Final Year Project (FYP) supervisor and to do some discussion about my title. The title given to us was "Enterpreneurship" and we have to discuss or perhaps venture more details and specific about it. So all in my mind was TOURISM. I start to think to have edu-tourism, agro-tourism and etc. And when I met her, she just told me: "your title was still very wide, can you give me more input and more details"..... The second thought that come to me was, I GOT NO MORE OTHERS IDEA beside tourism.

After analysis and discussing more about it, she finally came out to me with an idea "Bed and Breakfast Service in Malaysia". When I heard about that, the third thought that came to me was what on earth is that? I don't even know it...And I goes wander all over the place what is this phrase about. My supervisor just told me that it was a new term that start to use in MALAYSIA.

Then when I went online to check, this term already appeared long time ago around the whole wide world but MALAYSIA just only adapt this culture. Now you see, how back and back Malaysia can be.

So now people, can you tell me what do you know about "bed and breakfast service"? I guess most people out there will have the same thinking as me when first heard about it...

I am now terrified that I can't do well in this title cause the information that I got for it was like so little. I can't even explained much about it and now how am I supposed to do a case study on it? I am really crueless... Long way to go...

TELL ME THAT I WILL SURVIVE....haha...

The endless journey...

Tomorrow I will be heading back to Serdang and then Tuesday morning I will take the 10 plus flight to Kota Kinabalu already. KK here I come~~ Thinking of that it gives me mixed feelings actually. Firstly, thinking of 3 girls going adventure with just backpacking it just give me feelings of anxiety, happy and at the same time adventurous. Definitely it is the time, the week I really relax and let myself just go with the flow of lighten up my life...

Flashing back my mind to 2 months back, my life was so hectic. Everyday was a busy working day for me. It was not a normal internship. It was an internship fills up with ups and downs of my life and now it shall be a memory for me. Even though now I have finished doing my internship, I will still continue to work on as part timer just to earn extra income. Throughout my 2 months of internship, I have learned many things, explore to many different types of things as well as people and things that I will face in the future. I am now dare to say, I am ready to face the world with a better enhancement. A good memory back there with my crazy boss whom will go insane in any moment. I will miss her, damn~~~

I will also miss my times will all my others part-timers people @ colleague...I miss the time having supper with them after work and gossiping till late night about 4-5am each time as it were our own business. I will miss them super a lot. Miss watching movie with them, drinking tea and having lots of fun with them. I will definitley miss you all. But not too worry, I will be back every week so our times is still there..hahaha...And now I can say that I am used to the life of working till late night and waking up early in the morning to continue to work again. Work like a bull and enjoy it too.

When I do not have break, I will mumble to myself and hope that I was given a break. And now I am having a little break where Uni semester start and I can guarantee that I will miss the life of working back then. Guess this is norm of life and we people will never be satisfy with what we have. When in uni, I have uni's trouble and infinite problem that due with assignment, projects, human there and lots more....and by then, I guess I will really miss my working life. Even though, working life stress me up like hell but I seriously taking it as a growing or life norm. It is something that we have to face.

Well, I am now taking few days off before I come back for the starting of my new semester and also coming event in Infineon Technology for their gala night and service award ceremony. Guess it will be a long planning event to go over...

Quote of the day~~~

Feeling so great~~

I am feeling so great now. It has been a long time since this great feeling comes to me. Ever since I started to do my internship, I felt extremely stress and exhausted and it was the feeling of not having break. Suddenly at this moment, I am feeling so great when I get to know that I need not have to wake up early tomorrow to go for work. Even it was just a day, but I already felt thank god. At least, GOD gave me a day to rest well and have an enjoyable time. But after tomorrow night, I will start to emo back because I have to face the fact that I am going back for work the day after...

SO, I am gonna enjoy my day tomorrow... ~~~

To make you feel my love~~

A great song from Kris Allen. A meaningful song, with a meaningful lyric. Is hard to make people feel your love because sometimes people are dumb. They will never know. No matter how hard you want the person to feel, the person will never ever know. IT IS REALLY VERY HARD FOR A PERSON TO KNOW THAT YOU LOVE HE/SHE!

WHY? Sometimes people are so so so so not aware of the things or maybe the person around them. Take a break, and look around you. The best things in life is always beside us. Just like we did not realize it only.

So near yet so far..

SO near yet so fast..what a random post title..
Have been very emo for the past weeks...can somebody bring me out from the emo-ness...DAMN!~~~

I can feel that there is a distance between us already. I can't find any more distance between us. Is like miles to me already. I tried very hard to bring everything closer but with a pair of hand, I realize it was really hard. I hope that we can get close back like last time we used to be... I don't want a distance from you but I want a reach of hand with you..

Can somebody tell me the way, teach me the way, guide me through the way and definitely bring me to the way...

I really want to build back and repair back the gap between us..
I need it..
and I believe I can..

In the process..

I'm now in the process of learning how to be more mature in everything. It was hard, but I will try. I guess the coming days will be a tough one for me, but I will try to do my best in everything. GOD, please guide me through.

There is no use to regret or wat, but we can only march forward for everything.