The good old days...

When I see back all this pictures, it makes me have so much of memories about the days I had with the band. It was really a good old days, a rekindled memory. A memory that will be treasure and remember for the rest of my time. When I was in the band for 5 almost 5 years, there are pretty good and bad times; happy and sad moments...BUT that is the memories that should be kept. We were like one big family, having our time together and generally having a good time together. Those were the days, looking back the footsteps that we have left in school; our beloved school band.....

During practice, the clarinetist....

The flautist...

The marching band..parade for Merdeka day celebration..

our conductor, Mr. Ronald Hendriks..

performing for school event..

Forgot what gathering is this, but I think was farewell dinner at Equatorial Hotel..

Our instruments..

While waiting for performance to start..

March-past..

The Form Fives...

END!

Here comes the end of my final exam already and that means it will be the end of my first semester of the year 2009/2010 too. So before we head back to our hometown, my friends and I went up to Genting for one day/one night turnover. We straight head up to Genting after our last paper on Saturday at 3.00pm and off we went back and pack our stuff and headed to Genting Highlands. We reached there is about almost 5 plus already after checking in at First World Hotel.




Then we checked in into this ROOM NO : 24742. It is a deluxe room BUT the condition wasn't that "DELUXE". Bad maintanence room.



So after put the luggage, my friends and I went around first world cinema to check on the movie but to our dismay the show and time that we want were full so we have to take the 1.30am one and we finished our show at 3.30am. It was a night long day where we spend our time to talk, enjoy rather to sleep. BUT unfortunately, our plan was not followed according to schedule due to MANY unwanted circumstances. It is true that circumstances don't allowed us to do things as we please sometimes. One of my friend was sick that she can't join us for many things and thus we have to take care of her and make sure that she is alright all the time.



Besides, there is many more unwanted things that had happened. If were to say, it was way too sad to remember how we have "enjoyed" our trip.



It really wasn't a pleasant trip of ours. It wasn't a trip that what we want. We don't even got the mood to get to outdoor theme park and play. All we do is eat, went to casino, play in the indoor theme park and before we say bye bye we went to have a game of bowling. AND sad to say, I wasn't able to play. Saying about this, I was so FRUS. I was having a seriously backbone ache. It was like killing me. So those "stunt-stunt" activities I wasn't able to do. I wasn't able to climb stairs too. The PAIN WAS REALLY KILLING ME.



This trip really give us a unmemorable event rather than a memorable one. We weren't happy at all but I think I was the one being inference a lot due to my physical and emotional unstability. I wasn't happy through out the whole trip but I just pretend I was happy. I was sad because of some reason....*toot*toot*...

Then almost 5pm today, we roll down the hill. Then reach back to UPM almost 6pm already. I quickly fasten up my pace, loaded my stuff to my car and off I drove back to Malacca. When I was driving, I could feel that many knives were poking on my backbone. I was SO painful and I really don't know what I can do. All I do was concentrate on my driving to diversify the pain and DRIVE AS FAST AS I COULD. Thanks goodness, there wasn't any speed trap nor road blocks. All the way down, my tears were non stop shedding. I don't know that was the tears of pain or the tears of sadness. I just wish that I could reach home as fast as I could to lye down and take my medicine. At that particular moment, I feel like dying especially when certain "things/matter" goes pass through my mind.

All I can say was, I was happy to be with my friends for this trip but this wasn't a trip that all of us oriented to look for. As you can see, we didn't even snap a single pictures. Those pictures were snap using my camera phone. It was low quality.

I'm Yours...

I was so drool over his voice and his well powered pronunciation. HE IS AWESOME! Oh my god, I drooling over him now...haha...I have been hearing to this video clip for super uber many times...haha...I am absolutely amaze by his great accent. GOSH~~~Besides, he has a great outlook too...

And I can say that he sings better than Jason Mraz in terms of saying the pronunciation. Clear and Well...Every words can hear bit by bit, without fail..

Conclusion : Voice is great and pronunciation is super COOL..

Exam fever...

Oh My God...it will be going to end of semester 1 2009/2010 already and that means that I will have to face exam already. DAMN!

So much to learn and study but in a very very short time and my lazy nerve is still in my body. Really lazy and as well as tired to study...haha...BUT BUT BUT...

I need to study...I have to study...

Is a misconstrue or feelings??

Is a hard feelings...is a mix feelings...

Is a misunderstand...

I want someone to understand me,

I want someone to care about me,

I want someone to listen to me,

I want someone to share with me...

But it seems like everything seems to be a whisper off.. I really do not understand WHY? Can someone tell me why? When I thought everything seems to be fine and getting on track that time, it give me hope and strength and telling me once more everything will be fine. I will see rainbows...TRUE enough, I see rainbows...

And the days after, it disappear...It also same like rainbows that comes out after raining but disappears when the sun rise high....That is the way it does on me....When I have thought everything will be alright, suddenly everything seems not going on my path...I HATE THAT!....

People always tell me love is wonderful..and I shall say is YES..

AND I have oodles of definition about that...

Love is patient, love is kind.

It has no envy, nor it boasts itself and it is never proud.

It rejoices over the evil and is the truth seeker.

Love protects; preserves and hopes for the positive aspect of life...

Always stand steadfast in love, not fall into it.
It is like the dream of your matter of affection coming true.

BUT...

it seems like everything is opposite to me now.

It also enhances the relationship and comforts the soul..

LOVE should not be experienced and not just felt..

as the DEPTH of love cannot be measured.

But how many people that understand this??

I understand but people tends to misconcept my way of thoughts..

If this can be done easily, then you can also love easily...

And as GOD said, "Love all"

Somehow or rather,

the meaning of love will change with each different relationship and depends more on its concept of depth, versatility, and complexity.

Some say it is false and meaningless; it never exist,

because there has been many instances of hatred and brutality in relationships..

But deep in me; cavernous in me..

I believe love exist...

if we understand each other and must always remember that nobody is perfect...

BE together, share the joy and sorrow, understand each other, provide space to each other, but always be there for each others need...

AND surely love will blossom to strengthen the relationship with the matter of affection..

By this way, I hope I will always see the rainbow of my life..and I hope the tears of mine will stop dropping.......

WHY WHY WHY..

Why on earth things can go like this?
I seriously don't understand why...
can some one tell me why..

The colors start to disappear...

It was one of those moments we were both happy.. :)
that is the colors of life...

BUT...

everything seems to fade, everything seems to disappear from me..
I am afraid..
I seriously afraid, afraid of losing you, afraid of a news when history repeat..

And that's the problem with us.
We are both stubborn asses and always want to get things our way..
We both hate to be wrong and love to be right.
But that's the thing about us.
No matter what happens, we always come back for each other,
ONE MORE TIME.

I had no idea. I didn't know. I couldn't have known because it was our commitment together. Or at least I thought it was...
I was hurt..
It kills me..

What was even worst??
We don't even remember why we are fighting for?
we just being crazy with each other...
I can't sleep through the pain,
and I can't see through the pain...

No matter how much of tears have rolled down from me,
there is still pointless use..
there is still a question mark..
why you behave so..
then..
the colors start to disappear from me..
it has been dissolve away with the tears of mine...

It seems like no one bother,
no one seems to care....
is just my own problem...

Even if I was typing this,
it was the strength from the God that make me continue with my life,
turn my life from sour to sweet...
I hope I can, with the will's of GOD...