It makes me worry..

I got like 101 things to worry from top to bottom. I do not know what has happened to me. I got myself so worry even though sometimes it was just tiny-bitsy stuff. I guess when ones are too bored they will tend to think of many things and start to wonders around. I guess I AM THE ONES now..haha..

I am worrying about my future, worrying about my health, worrying about my gonna start job, and lastly, the never ending list of my worries. Erhmmmm..... and because of all these, I can have sleepless night just thinking of it.

Saying about work, it makes me super depressed. Arghh~~~ I am not ready to face the world yet. I seriously not ready for it. So whenever I think of working on this coming WED, 1.06.2011 it gives me a huge anxiety and depression. I will start to imagine what kinds of colleagues I will be introduced too, how am I gonna kick start on my first day and it continues....And I think, I had been super worrying all this while. Perhaps things are not that worst as what I thought off. I just crossed fingers and hope for the best now. And what worst was, there will be no more late-night catching up online for me, no more late nite movies and definitely I can't sleep late and wake up late. What a life for ME! I had been like sleeping at 3-4am everyday and waking up as EARLY as 11-12pm.. Now, the biological clock must reset to earlier like 12am and waking up as early as 6.45am to get ready. GOSH.. can I do so?? Maybe it takes some times.....*slap me*...There is an urge that makes me to say, I DO NOT WANT TO WORK! haha..but because of $$$ comes into my life, I die die also gotta work. That's the deal..

Then, I will start to worry on my health. From day to dayss, my health are getting worst..My backbone ache was like killing me most of the time and I had a hard time to sleep at nite but still life goes on and I gotta bare on it. I will start worrying whether my condition will continue to worsen or not, will I have a very C-shaped body in future or how do I look like...I know, I am thinking too much but I just can't stop myself.

Well, my worries does not just stop there. There is no full stop for now... Well, I am just praying and hoping for a smooth journey ahead of me now. Blessing...Praying...

“Being alone can be depressing, if you let it. I keep my aches and pains to myself. I just listen and pray a lot.”

How I past my times...

After I back from Uni, I had been dazzling and lazying myself all the while till I gonna rot or perhaps having much of micro-organisme on myself..*fungus*..haha.. And I think till one fine day, my bro cannot stand on me anymore that he decided to borrow me one of his collection of book. At first, I did not have any intend to read on this book; "Origins of CHINESE Festivals" as I was not one of the good fans on exploring on this chinese custom. But since my bro had the intend to let me read and since also I am so stupidity of boring, I just read it. Huh, to my concern this book wasn't that bad after all. It mostly saying the scale and variety of Chinese festivals that have never ceased to amaze peoples. What are the origins of these festivals and how do they reflect traditional values in a civilization with more than 5,000 years of history before human and beings are being created. And I rather enjoyed reading it as it gives me many good information.


That's the book and I finish reading it within 1 hour. My bro got a shock why on earth I can finished reading it that fast...haha...and then he stares me with a weird looking, and just doubt that I read it and try to test me by asking me. Erhm...you failed, bro! I read it and I understand every single bits of it.

Then, he again borrowed me book. I think he really do not want to see his sister everyday the same old routine; eat, sleep, shit, and online...the routine goes on and on and on..haha..
This book more towards buddhism, more about wisdom thought, kharma and so on. I wonder why my bro bought all this books. It wasn't that cheap somemore. The price is RM16.95...


I still on my verge to read finish it. Shall finish it by tonight itself....

Oh ya, my bro's room is like a mini library or an old musuem as I always referred to. His room is full with books regarding it is fiction or non-fiction and etc.......

Hope

What is a life truly lived? Can one be happy all the time? To truly experience all that life has to offer, one must be able to compare the good and the bad. To know what happiness is, one must know sadness and to appreciate the highs, one must overcome the lows. We can see that a life without both good and bad experiences is a flat line and does not complete a person.



Therefore, what can we hope for is just to paint our white life into a colorful pieces of life......

It indicated our choice~~

there was a path
deep in the wood.
once it forked---
the bad, the good.

i chose to take
the left-hand path,
i did not know
i had no map.

now this road that i travel
is dirty and battered.
it's littered with dreams
that are broken and tattered.

paved with wrongdoings
and dotted with hearts,
that were taken from people
and just torn apart.

pain and regret
are common here
wherever you turn,
they're always near.

i want to cross
to the other path,
and leave behind
this painful wrath.

i thought i was forever
doomed to walk.
and all the gates
were tightly locked.

but as i continued,
a footbridge i could see.
a bridge of hope
called out to me.

slowly i crossed
to the path of good.
finally i was on the path
of which i thought i
should.

now hidden deep
within the woods.
the one that forked;
paths bad and good.

i once was wrong,
but now i'm right.
and before me
glows a guiding light.

altered by
a little step.
so close to falling
in darkened depths.

but i was finally
pulled to hope.
i found that footbridge,
and learned to cope.

my simple mistake
following the crowd.
ignoring the heart
that speaks so loud.

the choices you make
can change your life.
one will bring happiness,
the other brings strife.

following the crowd,
won't lead you to right.
if you follow your heart,
you'll be guided by light.

there was a path,
deep in the woods.
once it forked--
the bad, the good.

heed my warning,
because i know.
follow your heart--
you know where to go.


By whitney welch...
Source from Shiek Ching..


True enough that we human must always made the right choice in our life. Once we made the wrong choice, we might end up suffering and live in agony. That is where we blame our choices for that. I do hope that I had made a right choice in my life..I would not want to make a U-turn or whatever it was in later days...... GOD bless~~

50 Interesting facts~~

1. If you are right handed, you will tend to chew your food on your right side. If you are left handed, you will tend to chew your food on your left side.

2. If you stop getting thirsty, you need to drink more water. For when a human body is dehydrated, its thirst mechanism shuts off.

3. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.

4. Your tongue is germ free only if it is pink. If it is white there is a thin film of bacteria on it.

5. The Mercedes-Benz motto is “Das Beste oder Nichts” meaning “the best or nothing”.


6. The Titanic was the first ship to use the SOS signal.

7. The pupil of the eye expands as much as 45 percent when a person looks at something pleasing.

8. The average person who stops smoking requires one hour less sleep a night.

9. Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.

10. The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear.

11. Dalmatians are born without spots.

12. Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.

13. The ‘v’ in the name of a court case does not stand for ‘versus’, but for ‘and’ (in civil proceedings) or ‘against’ (in criminal proceedings).

14. Men’s shirts have the buttons on the right, but women’s shirts have the buttons on the left.

15. The owl is the only bird to drop its upper eyelid to wink. All other birds raise their lower eyelids.

16. The reason honey is so easy to digest is that it’s already been digested by a bee.

17. Roosters cannot crow if they cannot extend their necks.

18. The color blue has a calming effect. It causes the brain to release calming hormones.

19. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.

20. Your left lung is smaller than your right lung to make room for your heart.

21. The verb “cleave” is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere and separate.

22. When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red.

23. When hippos are upset, their sweat turns red.

24. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle was built in 1903, and used a tomato can for a carburetor.

25. The lion that roars in the MGM logo is named Volney.

26. Google is actually the common name for a number with a million zeros.

27. Switching letters is called spoonerism. For example, saying jag of Flapan, instead of flag of Japan.

28. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it.

29. The attachment of the human skin to muscles is what causes dimples.

30. There are 1,792 steps to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

31. The sound you hear when you crack your knuckles is actually the sound of nitrogen gas bubbles bursting.

32. Human hair and fingernails continue to grow after death.

33. It takes about 20 seconds for a red blood cell to circle the whole body.

34. The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

35. Most soccer players run 7 miles in a game.

36. The only part of the body that has no blood supply is the cornea in the eye. It takes in oxygen directly from the air.

37. Every day 200 million couples make love, 400,000 babies are born, and 140,000 people die.

38. In most watch advertisements the time displayed on the watch is 10:10 because then the arms frame the brand of the watch (and make it look like it
is smiling).

39. Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command “go hang yourself.”

40. The only 2 animals that can see behind itself without turning its head are the rabbit and the parrot.

41. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.

42. The average person laughs 13 times a day.

43. Do you know the names of the three wise monkeys? They are:Mizaru(See no evil), Mikazaru(Hear no evil), and Mazaru(Speak no evil)

44. Women blink nearly twice as much as men.

45. German Shepherds bite humans more than any other breed of dog.

46. Large kangaroos cover more than 30 feet with each jump.

47. Whip makes a cracking sound because its tip moves faster than the speed of sound.

48. Two animal rights protesters were protesting at the cruelty of sending pigs to a slaughterhouse in Bonn. Suddenly the pigs, all two thousand of them, escaped through a broken fence and stampeded, trampling the two hapless protesters to death.

49. If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural cause.

50. The human heart creates enough pressure while pumping to squirt blood 30 feet!!


All these are the facts that we might not know in our life~~

Road not taken by Robert Frost

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;
Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
two roads diverged in a wood, and I --
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.


The literal meaning of this poem by Robert Frost is pretty obvious. A traveler comes to a fork in the road and needs to decide which way to go to continue his journey. After much mental debate, the traveler picks the road "less traveled by."
The figurative meaning is not too hidden either. The poem describes the tuogh choices people stand for when traveling the road of life. The words "sorry" and "sigh" make the tone of poem somewhat gloomy. The traveler regrets leaves the possibilities of the road not chosen behind. He realizes he probably won't pass this way again.

Therefore, we must always choose the right road for ourselves...we do not know how far can we go, but we must take up the challenge and GO THE DISTANCE~~

Happiness

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn’t arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.

Dilemma!

I am in super high arouse of dilemma..

I do not know what is my future gonna hold for me. I am afraid of choosing the wrong path and enter the wrong field. I would not want to make an U-turn in my life as it was really a waste of time and with that, it makes me super dilemma. I thought without applying for job first, I can take a good rest but it seems I am wrong.

I think I am the super lucky devil that have all the lucks where I being offered with 2 jobs right after I finished my Uni life and without me sending them resume. WHAT a LUCKY DEVIL! But I am having problems to where I wanna be now.

1. From A'famosa calling me asking what position would I prefered in their resort? So I answered with a position which is forever my strength with is PR (in my heart wanna say CEO already..haha..). They are offering me 2.3k but then not really much of benefits and is like super far. From my house also need about 30mins with the speed of 100km/h without traffic lights.

2. From Philea Resort and Spa. Offering me hotel ambassador..My job is mostly layan those orang kaya, those super damn big VIP. Is exactly like PR work description too actually. 1.9K and after confirmation will be increasement. This one is alright for me but then this job gotta work shift and basically the salary was just 1k and after hotel credit point will have 1.9k. So now is it worth??

I am in dilemma now. I do not know which to choose. 2 in hotel industry and another one is in secretary field...gosh~~~ all seems good and nice to me. In Malacca, I do not expect the salary like KL for about 2.5k, but as long as 2k is already very good and GOD treats me well. Now, which should I choose?? If you were me, you were end up in which option?? I am really afraid that I made the wrong choice..or shall I just wait for others options?? Or as what my friend said, venture into "xiu lai lai" field?? haha..that I need a super rich prince..haha...

Another phase of LIFE~

The moments that had kept in my mind~~

As today while I am going through all my certificates from primary till Uni, I had rekindled mankinds of memories. Suddenly, is like a picture of slide show playing on. And when I looked through my exam results, I said to myself that I shall had done better. Is like word of REGRET but is there any point to regret now? There is no point of return to me anymore. I shall and have to diverge into another phrase of life. As what my uncle utter to me that, it was the sign of the maturity. The next generation of life have just started. No more students benefits. All on my own to face a whole new challenging world.

It’s amazing how so much time can go by and yet the same feelings that what had once long ago been initially obtained can still be evoked to an equivalent magnitude. I used to be awesome at goodbyes. Sure i’d be sad in the moment, but once it was over I always knew that something new would be a “hello” and the thing I just said goodbye to would be a thing in the past, a memory that I shall embrace in near future.

This time is different, and hence the reason why I won’t say goodbye. The truth is I finally care. I care about the people around me, my family and my friends, and even the place I live. I’ve come to appreciate how great my life is with these people and how I’m only happy because of them.

So finally I say “This Ain’t Goodbye”, “this is just where love goes, where words aren’t warm enough to keep away the cold”

Sure we might be leaving each other for however long it takes to see everyone again, but the love that we’ve created, the trust we have and the bond we’ve made will last forever; so: “as long as we’ve got time this Ain’t Goodbye”.

Crossed fingers and hope that each and every friends around me that graduating this year would be able to got themselves a good prospect of job. What a life we are diverging and going through the road not taken..best of luck~

ONE Malaysia... 1Malaysia~

Since Datuk Seri Najib Tun Abdul Razak became the sixth Prime Minister, he introduced a concept of solidarity, which is One Malaysia. It is not a new concept. In fact, he states that it is the goal of national unity envisioned by past prime ministers of this nation with a different approach and method according to the current condition of the world. In the other words, he updated the concept which is brought by the previous Malaysian leaders. The Prime Minister also states that the 1 Malaysia concept is the guideline on how to achieve bangsa Malaysia, which translates into English as a “Malaysian race”.

Nowadays, certain of Malaysian citizens sort theirselves according by their races. Thus, it will lacerate the solidarity and create a gap between races. Furthermore, some of our people are only socialize with their own race and they were unlikely to be friendly to the other races. These factors are also adapted into our local economy sectors. In short,1Malaysia concept is the idea about making all malaysians of different ethnicities and religions to fully understand and respect each other's cultures, and to live together, work hand in hand and the sharing of responsibilites to achieve a better future for Malaysia in terms of socio economy and political stability.

What's the used of saying this 1 Malaysia term where not exactly more people are enjoying it. Discrimination still live on around us. Chinese's students who have obtained good result in their SPM could not have the JPA schorlarship but Malays with not a good result managed to got it. Now, when we entered to any government agencies, look upon it...stumbered your head up and you will realize OHMYGOODNESS, it was mostly 99% are Malays. The government are feeding them with all our moneys and that is where I think they come out with the concept of 1Malaysia. Worst still they even have 1Malaysia choice of chocolate malt drinks, then come out with the concept of 1Malaysia mail. Can anybody tell me what is the used of it?? I seriously do not know.

What are the government doing now is not upholding the 1Malaysia concept at all!

Before we bid goodbye~~

Celebrated Patricia advance birthday on the 9th May 2011 at WIP, Bangsar. It was really a surprise birthday celebration for her as her birthday only falls on the 18th of May. But we decided to surprise her earlier. She was all happy on that day as she never expect it and what's more?? Her birthday pressie was something she granted for like super long time and we made her wish come true....



The birthday girl, wishing..

Us..the people who attended on that day..

Heran and I..

Now you see us, now you don't..hahah..

The Royal Wedding

I guess I am the most outdated blogger that till now only blog about the most happening royal wedding. Who cares?? as long as it was a wedding worth to be remembered on the 29th April 2011. It was the most memorable moments of Kate Middleton's fairytale wedding to Prince William, from her dress reveal to the carriage ride to the balcony kiss. It was really a fairytale story to be told.

The perfect couple..

On their engagement day interview...Kate is just simply amazing and stunning with her beauty.

Look on Kate's wedding dress! It is just simply perfect..She is stunning and gorgeous on it..

A picture of her dad opening her veil..

Prince Harry, a gentleman after all helping his sister-in-law with her dress.

It seems this picture of the royal wedding is assign with the fairytale, CINDERELLA..it can be really co-incidence..

But I believed, people had edited it. In my memory, the prince color of clothes should be in this way instead of that....

My 23rd Birthday Celebration~~

My 23rd birthday celebration on 26 April 2011. It was really a happening day for me as I thought I will had to face my books and notes the whole entire day as I am in the midst of exam. But things aren't that bad as I thought off. It was serious a deep hardcore thank you to my peers friends and my group of housemates. They really had drew a smiley face on me.

It was really a heartfelt thank you to Li Chia, who all the way came up from Malacca; Shi Yun, Ai Yun, who had drawn out some of her quality time just to spend on my birthday as she was in the midst of exam too; Sze Jein, who came joining after her busy schedule of work. You never knew how much they meant to me as our friendship still continue to sail despite the years and the busy schedule of ours. Our sisterhood will continue to sail as how I counted the large candles on my birthday cake. Not-to-forget too, the birthday pressie they got for me. It makes me super thrilled on that night. My 23rd birthday wouldn't have been the same without you all.

Celebrated my 23rd at WIP, Bangsar. Nice and friendly environment~~

The ones that had made the night seems so great~~


Me with my super expensive slices of cakes. ~A taste of heaven~

Celebrating my birthday together with dearest Sze Jein..

My Snoopy jigsaw puzzle.. Yeah~~~

The night just does not stop at WIP only. The party continues to as early as the wee hours.. When I backed home, my housemates celebrated with me despite they were all busy with the exam. How thoughtful of them..I don't think of it as being another year older. I think of it as another year of having enjoyed a friend like them. Thank you. The best birthday present that I could ever had is having the treasure of them in my journey of 3 years in Uni life. Generally we are having our good times together.

24 hours Old Town White Coffee at Cheras..

They are the one who had cherished my 3 years life in Uni. I am anticipated to know them..

The gals that stay under one roof, gossips together, giggling together and generally doing things all together..

What I do have of course is all of you and that makes every day special. I appreciate all you did very much, including your time and attention in the midst of your own hectic schedules.

~ THANKS A MILLION ~



“Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.” -Buddha

Hardworks and Memories...

Hardwork is the key to success? How true was this statement? Hard work helps us to develop our potential to the maximum and strive for excellence in any field. And I still uphold to this believe even till now..... CAUSE~~

My baby is born! My Final Year Project: Development Indicator of Micro for Small Bed and Breakfast Business in Malacca. I still can vividly picture the first moment when I was exposed to this title. I do not know what the hell this term bed and breakfast are. I am clueless, until I googled it and had much more anticipating interest on it. The journey on completing it was not an easy task. Efforts and hardworks had been inject into it till it was done. And now I am proud to present it...






Memories...
Memories that will remain in my mind till the end...
The memories that I had shed for the past year..
Well, then...this is the place where I had spent most of my time here sleeping, yacking, laughing and having pillow talks with my fellow roommates.
I am gonna miss all those moments.. we cried, we laughed, we talked, we yacked and generally we are having our good and bad times over here...My room in 706!



My mattress...

And today when I woke up, I felt there is a different in my perception of mind now. I am no longer the student that need to buck my head up to campus, do revision and catch up late night assignments..I wonder is this a good sign? or is it a sign that I have to think about the road that is yet to be taken by me? It yet to perplexed in my mind.....Diverging my life into another phase of life..

Finally~~

It has been like more than a month since I last updated my blog. My life was hectic and I do not have much time. Was real busy with the exam, assignments and not to miss out my FYP. However, all this had came to the end now. I have finished my 3 years courses in UPM and now I am waiting for the right time to graduate as well as get a well prosper job opportunity.

I got like tons of things to share, tons of pictures to upload and I think I shall get all of this done as soon as possible. At the same time, this blog is back to active mode. No more the about to die blog that just active after a month plus.

As for now, I will leave this post as short as simple to understand and stay tune for more right after this... =)